Hi Caliope, glad to see you back here but sorry to hear about your mom. You have had a lot of loss in your life related to alcohol. How is your situation with your own drinking these days? to answer your question, if there are any others out there like you, well I know what it feels like to be really lonely. So we share that and also have had my own relationship and drinking issues as well. You are not alone. With the relationship, I don't have any advice for you, but if you are really unhappy it sounds like something is in need of change. Good luck.