So I finally saw a competent doctor and she pretty much diagnosed me as bipolar II on the spot. For years, like even since I was a kid, I've constantly cycled through hypomanic and depressive states, non-stop. I already have bulimia, OCD (which is tied to my eating disorder), General Anxiety Disorder, and was diagnosed with clinical depression when I was 14 (I'm 29 now).

I've been put on Lamictal, in addition to 120 mg of Clonazepam a month and 10 mg of ambien per night.

One thing my doctor said that was interesting is that normal anti-depressants can actually make someone who has a form of bipolar even worse and unbalance their mood even more, which makes sense because whenever I would be put on an SSRI I would go full-out manic.

I'm hoping the Lamictal helps, as nothing I've been on has helped me. My previous doctor put me on Zyprexa, knowing that I have an eating disorder, and I gained 10 pounds in 2 weeks and promptly stopped the medication. I then promptly switched doctors, as I felt as if he wasn't a good fit; he would spend 30 minutes talking about himself and I wasn't able to actually talk about my problems, which are really serious.

I also think my eating disorder may be apart of my mania, as when it happens I simply lose complete control. tl;dr, I have a lot of things going on with my head.

Does anyone have any advice, as someone who has just been diagnosed with a form of Bipolar disorder and is trying to get their life back together? I feel like it has literally destroyed my life. Yet at the same time, I am a freelance video game journalist and my hypomania actually makes me very goal-oriented and productive. But then, after a few weeks, I completely crash into a total depression. It happens every single month and my episodes can last from a few weeks to a month and then some. It's a constant back and forth between depression and a high and I just can't take being so unbalanced anymore.