There were a lot of difficult things...especially with PrevT who saw me during the time the PsychiatristAbuser was seeing me.
First difficult thing...was my name. I was talking to PrevT on the phone checking to see if she would take me as a patient. But I was afraid to tell her my name. She let it go....and scheduled the appointment anyway. When the registrar called to pre-register me, she pointed out they would need my name to bill my insurance. Oh.
Next...it was difficult to reveal PsychiatristAbuser's name to her. I was seeing her twice a week then. I was afraid she would be required to report what happened to me. I wasn't going to report him, call the police or file any civil suit. I thought he was a good man who made a bad mistake. So, we went on that way for months. I started telling her what happened to me, but I wouldn't tell her his name.
She hospitalized me...but I especially wouldn't say his name inpatient....lots of possible mandated reporters inpatient.
I was discharged and back in session a few months...
Then, I accidentally SAID his name!
That's how scary that was.