Oh, you know... it was also terribly hard to be honest about some of my failings as a mother. That was the hardest disclosure of my own to make, aside from abuse related ones. To say that I had screamed at her and such... I felt so awful, but that's why I came to therapy, to be a better mother. I didn't realize I had PTSD that made it so hard for me, and once I could fess up to those things, I became stronger and definitely a better mother.