I started exercising again, now I am in both physical and emotional pain. My husband is trying so hard to make me happy and I just fake smile because I dont want him to know how much I dont care about life.

Just an example, my husband got me a fitbit so I would be able to connect with others getmotivated for moving. Well yesterday I did 11 miles and won the weekend warrior challenge. I would not let anybody else win, but It did not give me any satisfaction. I used to be an athlet, no big deal anymore to win.

Thank you all for your time to read my post and to reply. As a return I only can entertain you with my messy life.