... my going away posts when I then change my mind.

And sorry for anything else I've posted that others find triggering. For me, I'm often hurt and triggered online. And offline. Often agonisingly so But the alternative of isolating is not healthier, I've been told. That is for ME..

I do my best but I can't control how others perceive me. I iwsh I could.

I do know, for me, people who frequently hurt and/or trigger me almost always remind me of someone in my family in some way, or some aspect of myself. That is ME.