Deep breath, TheSquids. This isn't something you figure out overnight. Frankly, labels don't mean much. They are just words with definitions to help describe our experiences. Which can feel incredibly important when we have felt for so long that our experience is something to be buried and hidden, when we are designed to be free and not shackled. We want to scream out to the world who we really are.
Having said that, learning about who we are is a life long journey. That's just how complex each of us is. Slowly I'm beginning to learn that it's better to just be than to grasp at figuring things out. My brain will never fully figure it all out. But I am still me. I don't have to figure out how I breathe or learn how to do it. Or for my heart to pump blood. It just does. You don't necessarily have to know what your label is in order to be yourself. Be yourself and eventually you'll see that maybe this fits or that. Maybe none do. It's all good. Just be you, things will make sense and unravel. Sometimes when a knot is so complicated you can't pick it apart, just gently rolling it mindlessly between your fingers will loosen things up. Take your time. As much as people like to think life is a race, it really is more of a journey

Btw I say all that but I definitely am not there yet lol. I'm in a somewhat poetic mood and it seems like something that might be helpful so I'll leave it instead of deleting it like I normally do lol.