You shouldn't be ashamed. U didn't do it it was done to u. I did the same a bit ago and I was so anxious. At that time I was seein T every other week. Well I had to leave it with her and I was a mess of anxiety and had panic attacks. They lessened the longer she had it. But when I finally got it back I felt some relief. We hadn't had time to speak of any of it for I quit with T. Nothing to do with my "story" but send said something that angered me and u couldn't get past it. I tried for weeks and I was just so far gone I ended it.

Don't let it frighten u. U can stick it out and the two of u will speak about it probably a bit at a time to let u work it through. Depending on how often u see each other maybe a pg every month or two.