Not sure I'll ever be able to heal from all the evil @#$%! mine did to me.

Often feel empty and totally bereft as well as bewildered at how calculatingly cruel and criminal this woman was to me (physical, verbal/emotional, sexual abuse).

While I have come a long ways my healing and recovery process, just the thought of all the vile, evil @#$%! this woman did to me still literally floors me and leaves me feeling like that song says, A Motherless Child.

Come to think of it, I'd've probably been better off with no mother than with the mother I did have.