My session yesterday, where I finally broke my "never let anyone see me cry" rule, because she was forcing me to acknowledge that I do not control the universe, and that I have to stop accepting the blame for things that are absolutely out of my control. The hardest thing I've ever said out loud, in my whole life, and she basically goaded me into it. She asked me "so what was your diabolical plot, your underlying motivation, your dastardly plan and how long in advance had you begun working on it?" I just gaped at her like a goldfish and started sobbing, because I had no answer.