You're welcome, STBGuy!
Don't forget though, that life isn't just a tally of making up for the **** you think you've done. It's all a journey, and part of learning about ourselves and life. I am 48. There are a lot of things I wish I'd done but I know that there are still good things I can do, even if it's just posting stuff on here to a stranger I'll never meet. Hang in there! Give yourself time and space to find the right thing and meet the right people. It's not a race. Chill!