Over the last 5-6 weeks, for the first time in my life, I have felt depressed. I've had O.C.D. and occasional anxiety for a decade, but never depression until this summer.

In December, I will be graduating college. I'm currently in an internship. I had to cut back my hours in my internship last month, and for a few weeks I was feeling a bit better but not 100%, I then started to feel not so great this past weekend and this week, I feel like I did in early July - I want to sleep all the time, I don't want to see anyone, I feel embarrassed about my condition, I feel guilty because I'm not getting work done and because I'm not organized, concentration is difficult, and I'm worried about the future. I felt this way a few weeks ago and couldn't work for a few days, then I became better but over this weekend and especially the last two days, I feel like I'm regressing.

I am on medication and in therapy. But I am concerned that the work I'm doing this summer, my own embarrassment, my own guilt, and my worry about the future are really impacting my mood. I also don't know if people fully understand what I'm going through. My family does, and I've only told a few of my friends what is going on, they all feel bad for me but I don't know if all of them understand.

I don't know why I'm so upset/depressed exactly, every little task just seems like a huge challenge and as work piles up, I just want to go in my room and not deal with anything or anybody. Then I feel bad, it's a cycle. Is it normal to feel better, then not?

Basically, I end up obsessing over things, I don't sleep well, I am not motivated, I want to be alone etc.