Quote by Soccer Mom.
I wrote in my journal that I want someone to check in on me, hug me, tell me they love me and everything will be ok. Be affectionate with me. I guess everything you envision a mom being without the time restrictions. (quote)

This is exactly how I feel. I want the same things. I want a mother figure who will check in, hug me, tell me they love me, that I am ok and be affectionate. It hurts and its a really bad feeling. I want it so bad sometimes that I do cry or it triggers other bad feelings. I want my T to fill that role and its one of the hardest things ever to accept that she can't and never will. I told my T about this and she said I need to be my own maternal figure. I need to mother myself and get this from myself. The problem is that you can't get the affection from yourself. I am sorry you are feeling like this as well. What has helped me is that one night I asked myself to list all of my needs and I realized that my T is meeting those needs right now. She can't be my mom but she can be there for me, listen without judgment, give hugs, check in, say she has love for me, teach me how to mother myself and how to change this aspect of my life. So even thought I can't have exactly what I want....I am getting that I need and my T is the best and I love her.