No I'll be fine, It may be unpleasent but this is our 3yr together and not her first break.

T has always contained my recovery, never mentioned I wouldnt be able to cope, always maintained though hard it is do-able.

I think if she started from the begining giving me crisis nos.etc I would have learnt to rely on something instead of going through the pain. If that makes sense??

Even with my talks on suicide etc, shes contained them, never talked about me having to ring others etc only saying I know I can ring her if I need her.

Part of me looks toward T to contain what I've struggled with and she does it and shows me I can do it too.

I've decided to borrow one of her books again during the break.