I also have always craved mothering. My mother , sisters, and female in laws are not very affectionate or caring. I am not close with them. My T is a male. I don't get it from him. I feel unlovable and detached. I am so jealous of my friend's mother daughter relationships. It hurts that my mother sees me as an object of necessity and demands so much from me yet can not give me some back. "children are for taking care of you when you get old" I am a an object. Yet I am fearful of anyone who is nurturing to me because I am afraid I will become dependent on that kindness which I know is only temporary. On a positive note I give to my children all that I did not get as a child and even now into adulthood. If I have done anything right in my life time it is that I have broken the cycle of indifference.