Dear T

I was going to talk to my mom about that thing, but I changed my mind. I don't know. I got irritated by her today. She made a comment about my eating. I don't want people to comment on my eating. That why I got eating problems when I was a teenager. I finally have my eating habbits a bit under control. But sometimes I get triggered and I want to throw my food up. I also find that she (and also my dad) doesn't deserve to know things. They got help for me when I should got help sooner. They didn't do anything about my brother. When they find out about my lack of eating and later about me throwing up, they told my T instead of talking to me about it. And last year, when I got really depressed, they didn't said to me that I should get help again, didn't encourage anything. They just let me be. They are just so easy.

And about the letter. I haven't got any reply from him. No reaction at all. No I'm sorry, No I didn't know, not even a **** you *****. Nothing. He just ignores me. He has been ignoring me for a while. No reaction is also a reaction. He doesn't care about me at all. I shouldn't care that he doesn't care, but I do. It hurts. And I want to punch him.