Thanks, but it's honestly for the best. I'm not helping myself hoping she feels maternal towards me, hoping to be loved in a way that carries outside of our 50 minutes, hoping our relationship won't end permanently someday. She's said she cares about me, and that has to be enough. Even IF she loves me, is that really enough to cure everything? She's been trying to tell me all along that healing comes from inside myself. About time I started listening.