Thank you Leah!

Today I went to see my opthamologist for the first time in a long time and was completely honest about the compulsive SI I do to my eyes. This was at the encouragement of my new psychologist.

She said aside from badly scratched corneas and scratched/swollen eyelids, I haven't done any permanent damage (yet). She was very very understanding and glad I'm in outpatient treatment at thr hospital. We're meeting again in 2 months to see if the scratching/swelling is gone and if so she will give me prescription eye drops to get rid of all the "goo" in them from years and years of trauma (close to 20, but worse in past 3-4).

I'm making enough progress with stopping doing it to try to heal them now. Plus seeing her in 2 months is added incentive to not do it. It was very hard to tell her about this, esp as she is not a MH professional but she was kind and understanding.