(((Rose))) if you cant go no contact, that doesnt mean you should go full contact. I know its hard not to want to share good news with her - after all, she's your mother; your good news should not make her angry, should not be a burden to her - but for some reason, its as if our very existence IS a burden to them. I gave up trying to figure out why, or trying to fight against it. You keep going back to an empty well. The sooner you face that the better. I will say, its not you, its her. I wish you the best.