Today seems worse. I've found that I'll feel completely fine and then something will trigger me (coworker seeing T.) which sparks my transference. I'll realize all the longings really have more to do with not having a mom than my T. and then get upset about that.

I can't stop tearing up at work and should really probably just take off today. But, my kids are at home so I wouldn't have anywhere to go and really be alone. Ugh, therapy sucks.