I was just talking to a friend of mine about this yesterday. This person has been thru alot in their life. I mean ALOT. And has done just about everything they had to to survive in this world. This is what they told me because I have been struggling with fulfilling my dreams for so long.

"and as painful as this may sound. in order to gain your dreams, you going to have to destory everything you know.Trust me I have destoryed and rebuilt myself a few times.. each time I get closer to the things I seek.Their has not been a day where I haven't expanded or explored inside and outside. Not saying overcoming the past is easy,look at me, took me years of fighting tooth and nail to overcome it.. the scars on my body, mind and soul are proof the road is not easy.one last thing.. be someone to yourself first and foremost."

This person left me speachless . I have been working in therapy to try to fulfill some of my dreams..get over some fears...like this vacation. I am flying for the first time.. alone. And going on vacation for the first time... alone. Scared to death.. but doing it.. I need this. For as long as I can remember I've wanted to see the ocean. I get to do this now!! I cannot tell you how happy this makes me. I know it sounds trivial.. but I feel like I will find a part of me there that is missing. Dont know why.. dont understand it myself... but I do. Maybe after I get there I will understand. But its the getting there that is important right now to me. That to me is the biggest step.. getting that dream fulfilled.