how did my alters take over...well I would get triggered by something, then dissociate...

lets use something non triggering to show you what I mean...I would be with my wife walking and talking with her, and she would say the word wind (not an actual trigger of mine just an example) her saying that word would make me feel numb spaced out/foggy minded (dissociation symptoms).

The next thing I knew it would be me looking up to find my wife and I are no longer out walking, I'm now sitting in a restaurant eating with my wife. An alter was in control from the moment of the trigger until the trigger (the word wind) was no longer an issue/taken care of (the conversation was no longer on the topic of wind because the alter saw a restaurant and we went inside to eat)

short version dissociation is a reaction to a trigger which means my switching into alters is a result of dissociating due to being triggered.

what did it feel like to me... it felt like dissociating (feeling numb, spaced out/foggy, like I was far away(disconnected) from the trigger, everything and everyone. I wasnt afraid or anything because this had been happening since very early childhood so it was just normal for this to happen and in some respects it was a welcome relief to feel numb rather than feeling anything.