Hi, Double...
No one wants to cause you anxiety or depression here...We are all speaking from experience and from concern for you!
When I came here to PC three years ago, I got honest, hard truthful advice...not something I really wanted to hear, but it was what I needed to hear!
At that time, I was actually engaged in a "casual sex" encounter and desperately wanting it to be more than that! The consequsences were very traumatic for me, and humiliating...
Also, I want to add here, that I too have met men online, engaging in conversations (none quite like you just experienceced), but these men can, as Sabau has said, can present themselves to be anything and everything online. I've had some horrific experiences from meeting men online, and no longer go there!
People here are concerned for you and your emotional and physical well-being, and we want you to be safe!
Love
Patty