(((((((Edgar's Mom and SideStepper))))))))
My heart goes out to you and I know I speak for all when I say this thread was never meant to make either of you feel less than.
If you re read my post, I mentioned a solid support system, which both of you (and myself included) had pre-dx...
I too struggled similarly, as I'm sure other posters have too, the only difference is, we have posted from the point of being aware of our BP and parenting...
Its a whole different ball game when you've raised your kids completely unawares that you're fighting this beast...
The first few years of my daughter's life I was on an ignorant rollercoaster myself, not understanding why motherhood was so much harder for me than for my peers... And I was only 19 when I had her.
So were it not for my parents in those first few very crucial years, things could've gone way differently.
Maybe I would've run away and gone to live on a mountain, idk :shrug:
Point is, neither of you knew what you were contending with when you became parents...
I'm sure that had you known, had you been receiving treatment, implemented life style changes, safety plans and parenting strategies around this dx, you would've had a different experience.
And you know what?
Despite your ignorance surrounding your dx, you still managed to pull it off, even when all the odds were stacked against you.
NOW THAT IS AWESOME PARENTING!!!!!