I felt the same way. I took care of my mom and was the "good girl" but I wanted it all to be over. I was so tired of the manipulation. My T. asked me last session if I missed her. I really don't think I do. I miss asking questions but not her. I miss more the mom I never had.

I once told my T. I loved her. She asked why it was so hard to say. I said I really didn't know. She said maybe it's the first time you had the emotion behind the words. I realized I always told my mom I loved her but I'm not sure I ever felt it. I had closed my heart off from her for years.