I am going through a situation right now that is deeply hurting me on the inside. I am dealing with relationship issues. My bf and i have been together 5 years now but due to him being in the military he hasnt been home in 2 years. He has been to visit and i have been to visit him. Now he's almost home for good once he's released from MedHold. But recently he cant home (Friday) for 2 week. He had family issues to deal with this weekend so i didnt expect to spend time with him. But the next weekend (this weekend) he had plans for a trip with him friends. He will be gone 5 days straight out of town with his friends and i will be here again alone and with out him. I'm soo tired of being alone and he dont understand. I get very emotional and depressed when i cant spend time with him when he's home. Well if anything not mandatory is standing in the way; like this trip. I feel he rather be with his friends then with me; the one who has been living 2 years waiting on his return. I cant cope with this feeling i get from the situation. Last night i went to talk to him about how i feel about this but he just laugh at me and tell me i am asking for too much. He tells me mean things and make me feel like he doesnt care about me. But i know he loves me, i know he wants to be with me but not how i need him to. I want to let him go but it is killing me to even think about doing such a thing, then i want to stay and work this out. I just want the pain to stop. I admit i get a bit out of hand when i PMS (which is now) and i take meds for it but i havent been able to afford my meds and i have no control of my reactions. My actions only makes matters worst. I have seeked help online and will soon contact a psychologist for addt'l help but until then i need some kind of help and support from others who understand how i feel. I feel like i'm alone in this and i am the only one who feels this way. PLEASE HELP!