I have a strong suicide plan. I'm getting all the beneficiaries of all my assets to my boyfriend. Handwrite a living will. Make sure we are settled in our new house with no problem. I think about taking a whole bottle of Tramadol. The funny thing is that I'm scared to die so I would immediately tell someone I did it. I don't know I have this scenario replaying in my head that I drive to the hospital then take the whole bottle. Like I want to die, but I don't. It's confusing. I Would do it out of revenge on my family to show them I'm serious, and they need to take me seriously. I'll put that in the note.