Yeah it sucks getting your stomach pumped, I've had it done twice, down the nose once and one time they just let me drink the charcoal... yum. I was talking to someone on the internet at the time on a forum and they got the mods to call the cops and trace my address and they showed up, I had no idea they were coming. it was scary as hell, I had snot running down my face and one of the police officers was laughing. That was my first attempt when I was 14

Anyway, that's trivial but the point is you need help NOW if you're feeling this way