Can't afford my meds because insurance med coverage maxed out for this year. My mom bought the 750 dollar Abilify injection for 200 dollars covered with what was left.

Idk if I can get the welfare emergency med coverage card because I'm probably in one of the most difficult situations because it's so complecated. They gave me free meds for August where hopefully my disability hurries up because it can take 6-10 months for them.

I wanted to walk out and just give up but what if my mom gives up? Saying that I can't achieve my goals.. It's true. I can't study but I don't want to have a college trade. My mom never gives up for me. She said she would work for every penny. I can't keep putting her through this. It's not fair to her. I told her not to buy the injection but she insisted.

Guess my psychiatrist will fill out papers because my inpatient said he would but I never knew I had to remind him ffs. Also going to get info from my old psychiatrist.

Abilify injection is not covered.

Abandoning my English course.. They said if I'm a student, they can't do anything.

My mom says that I'm a bit symptomatic right now. Going to sleep..

Something really bad is going to happen I just know. I can feel it.

Yes.. I obsess over drugs. But there's a reason. No matter how many drugs I use to cover my pain, it's still there. Watching people live their lives. All my friends on Facebook having fun, enjoying life. The life that I miss.