Well with me being a self harming, manic depressive, with DID and a binge drinking problem, I am sure we can relate on some levels, so when your “ready” pm me anytime if you want to talk privately.

in the mean time try and break the specific feelings, thought processors, down to specifc boxes, or lists, i know you dont like "labeling" per se but you will find 1 common demoninator that you can focus on, thats your starting point, good luck...