I cut i want to drink i want to use i want to cut again over and over
Just was at an AA meeting as well the AA meeting went fine its when i got home me and my husband fighting over small things i blew up at my husband we fought over that i got the knife out of the kitchen my husband found out and he had a go at for using the knife and for me cutting myself now i just want to hurt myself more . my husband is now playing his online games

i cant buy anything or get anything as my husband keeps all the money so i dont OD on my painkillers and other drugs or get drink
i feel like am the ****ing Queen i never get money

everything is cleaned up but i so want to take things
the strongest thing i have in the house is coffee