I don't really even know where to go with this . I am hurt! I am so angry! My husband can be a nice guy but sometimes when we are with other people he makes jokes about me as if I was some typical spouse that fusses in the car, is always late, and other such things. I do not fuss in the car I am never late but early, I am not a big horrible spender or any of these things. I spoke up once and said I was not like that right in front of the people who are mutual friends. He knows these things are not true he just likes the laughs he gets even though I suffer embarrassment and inner fury. Just before vacation he did this and I struggled all vacation even though I told him how I felt. He likes to tease but again even that is at my expense. I hate it. I have told him so . He has said he was sorry but now I am struggling with my feelings towards him. I hate that he treated me like this and I am feeling anger and even hatred towards him. I feel like my universe has shifted. We have been through a lot of things and pitifully we are married 47 years and yet he could be so disrespectful towards me. I try hard. I try to do my best and I told him if he has a real beef with me he should come to me. He just thinks he is being funny and I think he is being very hurtful. This is on top of some pretty serious family struggles. I am struggling to recover!
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