Yesterday just as the session was about to close I made a comment of we had talked about a lot in that session and then it hit me. So zoned out, I could hear my T talking to me but it was like she was so far away, or even muffled. I verbally responded back to her with a "yes" a couple of times, I think. When she realized I was dissociating she asked me to find 5 Blue things in the room. It didn't make sense why she was asking that, there was still this push/pull going on in my head. I found the items and she counted, I don't think I could have done both. Anyways, I was still stuck "out" of myself. Got into the car and it all felt odd, a little bit of slow motion and being numb. My hands felt like that had big, light gloves on them, like balloons. Drove to Lowes, sat in the car for a while when I got there, trying to recall the drive and I couldn't. So I went inside and everything Blue caught my eye, but I continued to walk around the store until I got to the items I needed. I started coming out of it a little bit and drove home. When I got home(approx. 2 miles) I was so relieved to get there. I had something to eat and went to bed. Felt better, but exhausted mentally when I got up.
My question is how do you prevent something like this from happening when you have no warning it's happening? You don't even know you are "out" until you are well into it.
Are there different intensities to dissociation? This one seemed to have a stronger pull for some reason.