Been a pretty tumultuous last 2 days dealing with rage and outbursts about how bad my behavior living around BP and alcohol binge drinking. Triggered by changes in routines and me getting as irrational as him because I am so stressed out and no more reserve. The only way I've coped is with my own denial and ability to ignore and withdrawal. I don't want to live like this and it takes so much energy from me to try and refocus and reign him in and I am angry! I am disgusted with myself for having the audacity of Hope because I actually believed he was going to really try to change but he doesn't see anything wrong with the way he spews and everyone else is to blame and he needs endless affirmation and assurance and I AM TIRED

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