Sometimes I email those things, or print them out to share, then I don't have to be so clear-headed in session, the work's done for me.

I think other Ts may be better or worse or the same, hard to say, but that no matter who you see, there will be concerns. So, whereever you go, the issue of having a hard time sharing your concerns will follow and it might be worth making it happen now, even though I know it's hard.