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Originally Posted by somat
I know nothing about relationships so will not comment on that!
I was selling myself as a teenager... I get so conflicted because I also understand the whole biological drive, that it isn't really a choice of what to be attracted to.... I like to think I have the whole liberal attitudes towards porn down...
And, it triggers me that guys do this. Actually, I get triggered even hearing about the attraction to teens, even when it isn't acted on in any illegal or legal way. And I know that this is wrong. But it bugs me... partly because I was that kid and partly because I want to know that now that I am older that I am still worth something...
There was an interesting doc on amateur porn... girls just starting out... it seemed quite real, not really there to shock but also showing some of the harsh realities of that life. Maybe show it to him and see if it will guilt him out of it!
No--terrible advice--the doc is probably too triggering for a lot of people but if anyone is interested, it is Hot Girls Wanted.
I just heard about it because there was an interview on Vice and the creator is someone I think is cool...
Anyway. I want to be liberal. My opinions are liberal. My feelings... But that lifestyle will **** up anyone.
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I have watched hot girls wanted, I watched it one night in our room while he was in the living room. When i left to get a drink of water he asked me how my movie was, I was so upset that I couldn't look at him, all I could say was "just watching your favorite girls from reality kings". Ironically enough, that is his most downloaded porn is from reality kings.
He refuses to talk to me about his little habit, he refuses to comment on our lack of sex life, and until he does...I'm just going to assume that this is the way he wants things, I have put out there that I would like for him to be intimate more or at the very least talk to me or someone about what's going on with him.
I have nothing against sex workers, I do have a problem with the supply and demand. How people that want barely legal porn get it, because there's a demand and girls want/need money. It makes me feel old, worn, and unattractive. These girls are eternalized on the screen, always willing to do whatever is asked of them and always young.
It creates this delusion that I will never live up to.
he says I'm looking to far into it, I say he just doesn't care.