Basically I started being psychotic long time ago. I told my closest friend that something was wrong with me, they said no you're ur just imagining things it's all in your head.
I stopped answering calls I stopped being with people. Iturned out an out cast.
later I saw somethings that weren't real I started crying when I told that to my girlfriend. things got worst later on.
when we broke up I stopped talking i was like a zombie started to say inappropriate thing to every one.
Now I only have a few friends I better now they can make me truly happy sometimes, and that was a mith when my psychosis started.
I'm trying to be more outgoing but sometimes word slip out of my mouth and ruin new friendships it's like i'm cursed.
Anyway I just wanted to get this out of my chest.

**** you all and be happy