Wow, that did take a lot to disclose. You should be proud of yourself.
Fpr some reason the worst thing I've ever said in therapy was "I deserve to be hurt."
I remember sitting there, not looking her in the eye and admitting that. I was curled up into a ball at this point. I did look up to see her grab her pen and a piece of paper and calmly ask, "Why do you deserve to be hurt?"
I can't remember what I said, but I was really emotional. After my response she said, "We're going to talk about this more."