I'm sorry it is so hard. I can't speak for what your therapist's process is or the reasons for it, but I will say that my therapist is extremely careful not to push me on difficult topics- she is strongly invested, based on her training and experience, in not traumatizing or controlling or directing clients, so she won't discuss a topic with me until I tell her I want to in pretty direct terms. And yes, that can be hard for me, but I've come to really appreciate it. So, it's possible your therapist is trying to follow your lead. However, whatever they are trying to do for whatever reason, I'm so sorry it feels personal and I hope you get some relief soon.