Well as you know (I hope) you are definitely not a freak. We know a lot more about humans and nature now than even 10 years ago. I don't know much about the demi genders but I think some others here do. From what I understand of it, what you describe could very well fit as demi boy. Genderqueer also comes to mind. But again, I don't know as much as I should. I think I'll write it down somewhere to learn more in the near future.