Stop rationalizing it. I was EXACTLY as you are right now. It's confusing. You are not addicted and you feel obsession. Looks like a hypomania or mania. You made some very impulsive decisions.

Nobody can answer all of these questions you have. You have to find them out for yourself.

Why are you not on your meds? This is what will happen.......you will quit jobs, get weirdly obsessed with a girl, it's all about the sex...for a while....maybe always.....then you get confused all over again and the cycle starts over. Your brain and heart are having arguments. Separate the two. What does your mind say? Not what to u feel.

I'm giving advice based on me lol I'm the girl form and done all of this except, of course, I got pregnant...I had obsessions with them and how they treated me and looked through them for happiness.

The secret is ...happiness is an inside job. I promise.

I'm helping based on my own experience and I work with counselors.

Please make your decisions wisely ok?

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