Angela,
Knowing your not alone can help, w'ere here for you.
Someday you may look back and find this was for the best, I 've been married for 28 yrs. to a man that has become my best friend, my first true love went off with someone who he said was better suited for him. My second love beat me and hurt me because (as he said) I needed to learn a love/hate relationship. I 'am better off now.
(((((((hugs)))))))
Angie