i think i am . i have been having such a hard time communicating with my T lately . i have been feeling like she doesn't believe anything i say . i feel she is frustrated with me . i asked her what she meant when she told me i was making things up. she acted like that was something i would never say . she also said something to the affect that she doesnt remember anything of our last session and if i wanted her to respond to my question she wanted me to tell her the context in witch she used that . i was kind of devastated she didn't remember much of my last session .i know im not her only client and all that .i have never really felt the need to be .but it would be nice if put some energy in trying to remember what was said.anyway i guess that isnt how things work and it is way much for me to expect that .i understand this . but she did give me a chance to tell her what was going on. she asked me if this is something i am needing to work out .if so i need to tell her what it is . i told her some. she also said we could look at why im feeling like this . i know i have talked to her some about how sitting in that stupid chair makes me feel at times . but once again she really gave me the chance to talk about it and being the idiot i am i just avoided it and kept distracting . doing just what she said i was doing . i know that this shouldn't be such a big thing for me . i know it was just being made to sit in a chair . but i cant seem to let it go when i am in there and i am terrified to talk to her about it .like it is something that shouldn't matter ,that all she will do is argue that this isnt the mother putting me in a chair ,that it is therapy etc... but i feel this way at times .i know it isn't right but i cant let it go . it is so hard to speak out loud about something that should be such a non issue . im scared to ,i cant even look at it with her .i just wish i could let it go and when she is just sitting there quiet i would feel that is all it is .not that she is enjoying my fear and misery. im an idiot.