I struggle with violent intrusive thoughts of self harm. They come into my mind and I can’t stop them. So far I have been able to keep myself from acting on the big ones—I’ve just done a little cutting and such. Part of me wonders if I will be able to hold them at bay forever.

The worse part about these thoughts is how alone they make me feel. Nobody but me knows about them. Nobody but me feels them. I am completely and utterly alone when it comes to these thoughts—nobody is ever going to be able to experience them. I don’t feel as if I have been able or ever will be able to make another person truly understand them. Isolated. They make me feel so incredibly isolated from the world.