I thought my depression was bad when I was a teenage, but adult depression is so much worse. I don't feel like I want to harm myself, but I don't want to do anything either. I'm constantly upset and exhausted. I have a job working with individuals with IDD's and mental health issues and I love what I do, but it's emotionally and physically exhausting. I am currently looking for a second job just to make ends meet because my boyfriend can't work right now due to hurting his ankle. I was supposed to start school this fall too but I can't because I need to have 2 jobs. On top of my boyfriend hurting his ankle he also lost his license for a year so I take him to all of his doctors appointments and all of his classes. I know I don't have to but all he has is his dad and me and his dad works 16 hours a day, and if I wouldn't take him he'd just drive himself and I don't want him getting in anymore trouble. I try and remind myself everyday that I'm blessed to even be alive and to have a loving boyfriend and family. On top of everything else my best friend and I are drifting apart because we are at completely different times in our lives and she's found a new best friend. And I hate it that I don't have the time to spend with her and her son.