i don't just want to die I NEED TO DIE. I am miserable so miserable. Every day I scream and cry and cannot take the pain any more. It is not right to suffer so horrible. I need to die I need to die. I scream and every day I have to struggle and nothing nothing nothing works. I have had it. If I can just get the bare minimum taken care of (no longer trying to get out of the hoarding situation, too much now) like my will and my cat and a few tiny other things, I get to die and I have to die. That's all.