Thank you Wisewoman, that was a really nice thing to say, I have been feeling down and that post made me smile, it was really postive and directed at me.

Now only if my BF saw it that way.

Anywho- I know that I will find a job, work and making money just to make it. Careers for me aren't important. I don't have to worry about bill except a visa. So why get so stressed out over it?

The pressures were just too much, my bf didn't understand by constantly reminding me what I didn't do or don't have was pushing me further into the pit of blocking and avoidance, too me that wasn't right.

I know I will get there, I have no doubt that I will, but it's just going to take longer .....I'll work again.....Got to work on me first I think. Building up my self confidence and self esteem is the most important thing, once that is up I know I can go out there and get a job that I desire.

Thanks girl. (((wisewoman)) You life up to your name...