I can relate to your situation. I'm having a hard time dealing and not punishing myself but I'm not doing a good job of it. I just opend up to my ex-T in May of this year about a little of the horrible stuff my ex-husband has put me through and continues to and everything I do to myself to cope. Unfortunately she took a sabbatical in July from doing therapy for a while - not sure how long until she comes back. So I'm alone in trying to deal with the memories and flashbacks that have been occurring. I can't find a new T that I trust to open up to like I did with my ex-T (took 6 months just to trust her enough and then she leaves). I can't share those details with anyone-I have so much guilt and shame. I feel so incomplete that we did not finish the journey. Maybe one day if she returns we can complete the journey.

Hugs to you ShaggChic!.