I've had a better grip on my depression & anxiety as compared to prior episodes. For instance, last year, I had a horrible episode that totally crippled me. I was attending college full time & working full time. So with so much going on at the same time, it was only a matter of time before I crashed. This year has been a lot better. I graduated from college & just received an offer to work for a good company, but the past weighs heavily on my mind even with all the good that is happening. I think about past depressive episodes I've had in which I felt like a complete fool for feeling so down & unhappy. I didn't have the energy to do anything at times like clean my surroundings or wash myself properly. I think of all the times I felt humiliated for not taking care of myself & I wonder if it would've been better to isolate myself to avoid the embarrassment. I guess I'm thinking about all of this because I really don't want to mess up this new job & I generally don't want to keep obsessing over the past. I want to live in the present but battling depression makes it so hard for me to do this consistently.
Can anyone relate or have any solutions that may have worked for you?

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