Well I'm closing in on 30. I've been unemployed for about a year now, but on my resume is shows two years of unemployment because I'm leaving my previous two jobs off the resume. If someone called those two past employers, then they would hear about how I was a nutter and ran off the jobs in the midst of total mental breakdowns, but it would probably be phrased even worse because neither of them were aware that I was mentally ill. I would rather try to come up with an explanation as to why I haven't been employed in two years, than have a possible employer call those two references.

I also have no vehicle which makes trying to get a job extremely hard, and I'm not sure if my body can take another Winter of walking for hours outside in below zero weather. My feet are also in bad shape still. My mother is loaded with money and could easily afford to get me a used vehicle, which would open up job prospects big time, but she is copping this attitude like it's not safe for me to drive. So like wtf am I supposed to do. I need to get a job, I need the vehicle to get and hold a job, and the only person who could easily help me with that, is acting like I'm too disabled to even drive and is acting upset that I would even ask for the help.

So what am I supposed to do if I can function well enough to hold a job with the right medication, which means I should not be on disability, but I can't get a job because I have no transportation, because I'm being treated like I'm disabled. I've applied to the joints within 3 square miles of the house, and have received no calls. I'm almost at a dead end and don't know what to do. If I go out further than 3 miles as a pedestrian, come Winter I'm going to end up really sick or with really messed up feet. The whole situation just makes me want to punch something sometimes.